Back to Square One (Yes, Adrian, it's good to be home)

Hello world, hello new blog. Hello another day of migraines. 

Lately as I've been lying in bed alternating between hazy sleep and restless writhing, searching my brain and the internet for ANY migraine remedies I might be able to get my hands on that I somehow have not tried in 20year+ lifetime of migraines, I think of others out there feeling the same way. I wonder if they, too, do the obsessive and fruitless Google searches, try every OTC remedy the drugstore has to offer, and have tried every suggestion from normal (getting your eyes checked, going to a chiropractor...) to... well... desperate (submerging your head in a bucket of ice, burning the inside of your nose with capsaicin...). As a break from remedy research- or rather, as tangent because of it- I've taken to reading "migraine blogs". I'm interested in seeing what other peoples' lives are like when they are colored by migraine. I want to see how they cope. I want to see how others treat them and how they respond. And yes, of course, I'm hoping they'll have found the miracle cure that has so far eluded me. 

I've noticed that each person mentioned at some point how writing about their migraines was a helpful coping mechanism, despite the piercing fluorescent glow of the screen. Another woman took to art, taking photographs that spoke to her of "migraine moods" and drawing pain-centered comics and "migraine monsters". Looking at these fun little pencil sketches made me wish I did something- anything- productive with my migraines, even if the only person it amused was me. I thought about the little plush animals I will sometimes hand-sew and thought perhaps I could make my own kind of migraine monster, but the thought of that much... well... thought only made my head hurt worse. For now this is the best I can do, this rambling blog that may be like my old Xanga and carry on for years or- more likely- be like every other project I try and enthusiastically get halfway through step one before being completely abandoned. But for now, I'll leave you with my latest migraine-related obsession: "Daysleeper' by R.E.M.

Daysleeper music video

"My night is colored headache gray..."